Tie Dye Dress - Thailand (similar - WEARECOW)

Sandals - ASOS

Fedora - Topshop

Peacock Hair Extension - Topshop

Slightly in love with this post just because of the bright colours (hence the photo heavy post). I picked up this dress a couple of weeks ago and I am in love with it, it is so perfect and such an easier chuck over or on when needing something cool to wear. As silly as it might sound but I'm so excited to bring all by new bits home (back to England) just so I can team them up with my knitted cardigans and chunky boots. Although it will be summer when I get hone so I will have ages to wait aha god I'm going to be dying for a winter by then. 

I am aware that some of the bits I am blogging are not available to buy as they are from Thailand, but I do try my best to find similar items and link them in the garments list. WE ARE COW currently have a very similar tie dye dress which I have linked so if you like mine definitely check theirs out. 

White Cocoon Dress

Cyber Floral Two Piece

Cut Up T-Shirt

X Print Cocoon Dress (sale)

Jungle Mesh Dress
Crystal Jumper
Tartan Top // Skirt

Crystal Bodycon Dress

If you are like me and love to find new exciting brands that are just emerging on to the high street then you will love the brand I am introducing to you today, however they are fabulous so you maybe of heard of them already. But if not then definitely check them out.

Bill†Mar is a London based brand created by Rosie Bonnar whom found her inspiration when travelling and working in Australia for a year. Naming her brand after her grandparents Bill and Marian (which I think is amazing, her grandparent must be pretty cool), Rosie creates a unique stand out from the crowd collection that is not afraid to deviate from mainstream trends. With clashing prints, bold, vibrant colours and fabric mixes Bill†Mar is an exciting new twist to the high street and the current trends.  Whether you are like me and like to mix up patterns and prints or a fan of the matching two pieces Bill†Mar will not disappoint.

I have put together a few of my favourites pieces from their new AW14 collection and also a couple of sale items have snuck in there too. I would love to hear your thoughts on the brand and what I have chosen. Also your favourites too. 

Bill†Mar Instagram / Twitter

Kimono - Topshop 

Shorts - Thailand

Sandals - Asos

Just a few snaps from Saturday what I wore (if you follow me on Instagram, you would recognise this outfit from there). The weather is so stormy here that you can get a little grouchy being stuck with not much to do, so me and James tend to go for longish walks to see what we can find and well just to stretchy are legs. Saturdays finds were this amazing view point (yes I moaned all the way up the hill and back down) and this amazing spirit tree and collection of spirit houses. It was so strange because as we were looking around every car that passed by would bib its horn several times and after about 10 bibbing cars we realised they were bibbing for the spirits and at the shrines. Pretty amazing.

So I don't really know where I'm going with the post I just felt like talking well typing, so I'm just going to have a ramble // I have almost been in Thailand now for 2 months and I am having the most wonderful time doing as I please and not having a worry or care in the world. But having so much time to oneself does make you think and wonder what it is I should be doing or thinking. What I'm trying to say is that having all this free time if making me reflect on myself and well where it is I should be going from here. Career wise, life wise just everything really. I'm 23 now, I graduated from uni over a year ago and I feel like I have nothing to show for myself or understanding of what or really who I am as person and well I guess I'm feeling a little guilty for just packing up my stuff and taking myself across the other side of the world to just do nothing.

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The plan was to find myself whilst I'm here, I thought Thailand would help me become a more confident person and help figure out where it is in life I want to go and what I want to be doing. But I've realised that Thailand is not going to makes all these things happen, it is me who has to. I still have a long journey ahead of me and many exciting things to look forward before coming home next year, so I know maybe I'm being a little hasty or hard on myself giving I've only been here 2 months and I'm already beating myself up about it. However these last 2 months have made me realise that I'm far to content in just mooching and being, and well mooching and just being is not going to get me anywhere.

However I need to remember that I worked hard to be here and have this year out so it's fine if all I'm pursuing is a beach bum dream atm. I need to remember that and stop comparing myself to others and don't worry about what every other being is doing and where they are going. I need to stop worrying and putting pressure on myself - pressure that is not necessary. This fault I'm sure a lot of us have and find ourselves doing, it is natural to compare yourself to others but I guess it's how we look and think of ourself at the same time that gives a different outcome. I need to remember to believe in myself (I flipping should I have it tattooed on me for god sake) I'm here in Thailand being a beach bum because it is what I wanted to do and I worked hard to save and be here.

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My problem is I'm a worrier and too much time on my hands leads to me worrying. AND I'm also my own worlds worst critic which is frustrating as what other people think doesn't bother me at all, I couldn't careless. But me I'll eat myself up for days worrying something I've done isn't good enough. God at uni I was a nightmare, it would take me months of tearing out sketchbook pages before I was 98% happy with the first page. But this trait I know is what will hold me back in the future I need to be more confident in myself and what I love doing if I'm ever going to make it work.

SO having admitted to all that, I have decided that from now on whilst across the other side of the world and when I am back home of course, I am going to stop judging everything I do and just enjoy it. I guess Thailand is the perfect opportunity to plan all things future, I have so many ideas that I want to pursue once I'm home, and I guess this time is the perfect time to figure out how I can start and make these things work. I just need to stop being a scaredy cat and thinking negative 'what if..'s' and just do what it is I love.

So it's ridiculous but I feel better for typing this all down (there I go again criticising myself) ok no its not ridiculous. It is good to get things off your chest and seen as it is just me and James here, blogging it  down seemed the easier option. Lets face it men are rubbish at understanding sometimes.

Well if anyone else out there is guilty putting to much pressure on oneself. THEN stop. You are fabulous and being yourself and doing what you love is the best thing you can be and do, so enjoy it and embrace it and follow it.  Amen xo



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